Life As I Know It

          Alright, so I might still be a teenager, but I still do know many times that trouble me and what kinds of things I need to change about myself. So this is pretty much me ranting about myself, starting 8:43pm. I am supposed to get braces next Wednesday and they already put in separators for my teeth. They hurt really bad and I have been able to chew food or eat barely any other kinds of food other than congee and ice cream. It isn't that big of a deal other than how I can't eat any of my favorite foods, especially when we finally have french fries at home. *Sigh* Brother will eat all of them before I can even start to eat them again. For some odd reason, it's always the left side of jaw that really hurts. I also feel like my teeth are loosening and I am afraid that they will fall out and I won't be able to chew or eat. I am supposed to take the AP Psych. test on Monday and I haven't been studying as hard as I should either. I wish I would stop gawking at my 3 love interests and do something productive, but then again that is something I treasure very much. That meaning looking at boys to see how imperfectly perfect they are. It sure does sound like a whole bunch of junk but I honestly do mean it. They are just amazing beings that fits my ideals. Well, then again, my ideals are very high standards which means that I don't really need them to be 100% my ideals. Most boys tend to fit parts of my ideals anyway, shy boy. Hehe, I love talking about my ideal boy. Okay, there are a few different ones but the one I am loving the most right now is a boy with a kid that is his. It is due to the book I read called "Nature Of Jade" by Deb Caletti and Sebastian has a kid but yet he's still so sweet to Jade. I must admit, it was first because of Dallas from Degrassi, he wanted to beat the crap out of Leo but he didn't because he heard his son's voice (Rocky) and stopped himself. That is such a great thing he did. Now, my ideal that has been for a while now is the generic nerd, of which I have yet to find him yet but I am not losing hope~! This is the first time in perhaps 2 months that I've typed anything out of my life and it feels good I would have to say. Though people may not read this at all since I don't promote this odd blog, but it feels good just being able to go back to read my own stuff without having to search for it through a flash-drive or a computer. :) Not much, but I want to add more later. End 8:53pm.